Sometimes... A Spotless Mind is Eternal...

Sometimes i think to myself I did the right thing, I chose the right decision, but then... i think again, sometimes i turn my head and see what the other side of the choice would of been, i try to kill my emotion, music helps, but not always and the same with a joint now and again. Love? is easy to say but actually feel it is harder then understanding this universe, when you come to point where Love feels like a salt lake, no where to go, dry, bored, annoyed, and driving you crazy, you try to lick the last drops of this lake but its all too late, I, myself I've come to a drought in Love, where i no longer can keep going, it saddens me and others, and I wish this didn't have to happen at all, i wish it was the sea, just never ending, it also could you drive you mad, but at least you would be full of Love, full of Joy. Love is a two way story, that also includes the fellow evil twin Anger, Wrath, Depression, Fury and many more...
Our time was long, beautiful, challenging and rewarding, but this journey seems to stop here, maybe, just maybe one day it will continue again, maybe in a different life.

I'm not scared of showing my emotion, telling you what I'm actually feeling about this situation, I'm not fearing the future, because I don't fear the unknown, I'm angry at what's to come, promises that right now don't seem to be happening, also adding that life right now here on this island is absolutely fucked up, its demolishing peoples life's, the government aren't helping shit. but that's not the point of this message. Sometimes I loose myself in my crazy little conspiracy theory mind, questioning everything, because life hasn't given me an answer yet, not just life, but everything isn't just what it seems, everything has more then one answer, more then the so called truth, I question Love, why is it so easy to fall in Love, but so fucking hard to get you out of my mind? You may wonder WHY!? why would i want to take her out of my mind? well... I don't want to feel like this, and I don't mean in Love but this weird way, its very unexplainable but its a negative feeling. There was just loads shit going on, small nuisances, that annoyed both of us, Our Love became Asymmetric, upside down, a fucking oxymoron. It was difficult to understand and harder to feel it everyday. Now I feel Free, not the feeling of "oh great IM SINGLE!!11!!" It's about the feeling of not being trapped, I felt like I was in chains... but I'm feeling better now, even thou "home" isn't doing very well at ALL!! but myself is feeling better "i do have a cold now thou :)". I will not delete or forget my past 2 years, I don't want to, They were the best I've ever had... But now its time to move on me and my spotless mind!