Sometimes the surprize is unbearable

Well sometimes there is a little feeling inside of me with a big thought, telling so much what will happen but I always tend to ignore it... I am sorry to myself, to my friends and to my family for wasting time and money, I just hope the experience was something to be remembered, as I will remember for the rest of my days...
Now, I will not know what will happen with my life, still no one understands my inner problems and I feel like they never will, The morality in people tend to be same all the time, and it tends to be that everyone has to be same, if you are not the same, they try and mold you into what THEY want from you. If you are strong enough you will avoid being changed, but sometimes its hard not to, its hard not being part of societies morality of self induced pricks.
The sun shines, while I think some thoughts about life, reminding me about the light I sometimes see to keep me warm and keep me away from reality, as reality today is only goverments, acta, sopa, sociaty morality, internet, and war... Does anyone see whats going on? I keep seeing this... sometimes in dreams, sometimes in a small vision... World wide revolutionary attack, on ourselfs. The Worlds First Civil War.
its true, a true anarchy, nothing will be left, so many things are going on, the sun is sending powerful solar attacks that could destroy our power grid system, the people are walking the streets and protesting about the million things the Gov has done wrong to us, more and more secret wars are being started, we are not finding enemies, we are creating them... Iran, N-Korea, China, Some Arab Countries, Pakistan, USA, United Kingdom, Europe. We are creating enemies... on our lands we make lies about each enemy just as they do to us, so we have an excuse to  fight and create war... Humans are not stupid and THAT IS the problem, because we are far advanced without control, if we had control of our own advancement in ourselfs, finding out who we are, finding the energy to continue walking and make this planet a better place we would be basically immortal souls.
We are in such deep shit with Economy too, I mean look at the Great Depression, millions without jobs, crime-rate higher then ever, in the 1920's and 1930's, do you know how they solved The Great Depression? World War 2.... and now, look out your window, look on your TV, look on your news... and tell me what do you see? Economic death? millions without jobs? protests? and now... whats missing...?
thats the problem with us, we repeat ourselfs, and do the same thing over and over... and I dont think 2012, is bout natural chaos from the earth shifting poles and the suns radioactive attacks on our powergrid... We most likely kill ourselfs...

Its there... only you need to do is compare the times, and figure out whats missing.

Maybe Maybe

So things have changed dramatically, very dramatically.
Promises were broken, and everything has been terribly hard for me to keep walking and trying to become what I want, I got help but not in the right direction, something seemed a little distracting with everything and I couldnt focus well enough has everything around seemed to be go down, if in one area of my life was great on the other side it was shit and it always dis-balanced in some way or another to the other side, so I thought to myself the best thing to do, is come Home, to Tenerife, as much as I hate it and I dont want to, I am going to be positive minded and make the best of what I can there, with my friends, family and so on.
Enjoy the silence.
I am sorry If I caused anyone any misfortune while I was been here, I have learnt so much in such little time.
But in other news:
I will be planning a Road Trip around Germany and possibly other countries around Europe too. This summer of 2012!
Gotta see everything before its gone if you know what I meen :P

Thanks everyone who has helped me here in Germany, its been a wonderful experience. :)