Well I havent posted in a hell of a long time, but I guess I dont have the need to write at the last few moments, My mind is exactly this: Each situation, idea, thought is a bouncy ball, and there are thousands of them bouncing around my head and im in the middle trying to catch them all before they fall to the ground.
And lately its been filling up, I have a love in my life that is very very special to me, we haven't shared many sunrises but we have a strong connection and will to suppress each others disabilities.
But I somtimes sneak out and lurk in the past, and what I feel isnt sadness or happiness anymore, but wonder. What do these people think of me? these past situations we shared "this can be related to ex girlfriends or friends I havent seen in a long time"... I wonder if they see me now, and see what I have changed into, who I have become, Finding my innerself without giving up.
Subject Change,
I am moving to the UK in June! So thats great! a new chapter in the large book of mine "dont worry it has many pictures" Maybe this new chapter will be more surprisingly better, with major changes to fulfill all of our dreams, because I am a fucking dreamer, I love to imagine and dream my future, like if its the blueprint of my life, to who I want to become... and I will one day achieve this...
Subject Change,
Lately I have been thinking also about judgement, Human fucking judgement.
Thankfuly everyday we see less and less of it but its still there... I found a cure to that, blissful human ignorance... Who gives a fuck about your scheduled life and death? Why do you need to plan? and learn a morality and life lesson from "others"? when its YOURSELF your inner sense to fulfill your own thoery and morality on life, create your own world, Use what is around you as a tool "not the humans... treat them with respect" also on that subject of Respect. I have fell in love with the word Respect, its so easy to do, and you easily get it back. Im still quiet narcissistic and vain, but I do these things in a respect where I do not, annoy, judge or hurt others, I leave them as they are, let them be, as they should let me be. Respect. Greet with a smile, leave with a smile...
well im chaging subjects a lot, I must sleep its 05:53 in the morning... Night or morning? Well Pleasent Sunrise.!
