Once your down, its when you realise the most precious things in your life really mean something for you.
But once you've been thrown down, and when you look back up, you see every memory being replaced, Not deleted but replaced, I find that worse, as your being left alone for the time of those memories, Because you now know, that some else is in those new and updated memories.
I do agree it hurts still to see it happen, not as much as it did, after so much pain, you tend to be quiet numb about pain in your mind.
I have become really cold towards situations and people, thinking only for myself, until I do find someone is worth it to spend time with, and make an effort.
Doing this thought has its benefits, you find out more about people in a shorter time, Can they handle who you are? Can they understand you?
In June, I will be taking an Entry Exam for College in La Laguna in Graphic Design, so If I do get it, Ill be moving there, starting a new life... again... But I love it, If one plan and adventure unfortunately ends prematurely then start a new before you become insane. Keep looking for a kick in your mind, something to keep you going as nothing around is keeping it alive anyways.
I havent wrote an entry in this blog quiet some time, and thats because there was not much to write, and now I am in a state of a cold bitter-sweet sarcastic and ironic positiveness that makes everything that has no common sense, no respect makes me laugh. It makes it so I can actually enjoy being let down, because I know Ill be better to whatever happens and to whoever.
Dont trust me, until I comfirm to you I am trustworthy, because I am trustworthy when you can be worth it.
I among no one.//
