Today was the last time I saw her eyes shine through mine.
For only a week I was with Anastasia and tomorrow she is leaving from here to live in Belgium for her future.
I'm happy for her but its difficult I didn't expect to expect feelings this fast for someone after Grace. But it was amazing while it lasted...
I've decided to post ALL MY LYRICS, all the lyrics I've written well... the ones i can find because I've done so many I don't know where I've put them hehe.
Dissatisfaction
results wernt growing well
as eachothers pain
were revealing towards the end
a dissatisfaction
disbelief of our status
became more ignorant
we decided to forget
and go on
but the dangers grew closer
confusion blew across our oceans
devastation cried around our minds
a song that played
we wanted to shut down
phases became more and more
we were going down
like 1912
we hit the berg
we knew this
but we chose to ignore
piling up to a tower
to fulfill a path
that we didint see
a dissatisfaction
disbelief of our status
became more ignorant
we decided to forget
and go on
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Exposure
as the end was nigh
we started to know this
choking on our own words
to try and set a goal
but exposure
to our truth of our emotions
became more evident
that we no longer tryed
we repressed our feelings
shutting down the truth
allowing ourselfs to fall apart
contact became a chore
denial in our minds
trying to pretend
we have no sorrow
soon to be an unveiled truth
but exposure
to our truth of our emotions
became more evident
that we no longer wanted this
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Negotiation
sitting down
trying to play the field
not knowing the rules of the game
we tryed and tryed
negotiation was in place
to settle an agreement
to our love and destiny
we didint know the rules
we continued to ignore
our fate was becoming
a future with no hope
confusion led to this
we faded away
like morning's night sky
we felt unconcious of our love
negotiation was in place
to settle an agreement
to our end and path
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Resolution & Transformation
still going on
together we are
but we both know
that its still isnt this
the resolution
isnt working
like the plan was ment to be
a transformation yield to go
an explanation
to the behaviour of our last moments
in this field of sorrow
we couldnt bear no longer
a truth slipping into the world
suspecting something is nigh
i choose to go on
to fight another time
the resolution
isnt working
like the plan was ment to be
a transformation yield to go
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Termination
falling down these stairs
a ragdoll pushed around
no freedom in choices
following a path we didint want
termination was the answer
something we both feared was going to happem
trying to put the world back
to way it was
the less we give
the more it comes
we need to accept
that anger and guilt
is not our fault
confused with a new end
to begin a new life
without our eros
feeling this loss
feeling this anger
is ok
Acting on the anger
is not!
going back will not change
our outcome
its gonna be a hard ride
but we gonna integrate
our lifes to acceptance
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Her seductive smile
the seductive smile
turns you into stone
freezes you in time
not knowing whats next
i dont care
she is the last ingredient i needed
from the pain ive received
i will be preapared
a new fight
a new desire
to engage this time
a new beginning
her seductive smile
a string of guitars
playing the chords
with a mile to live
eyes that can kill
a thousand men
stronger them kings themselfs
even without the city lights
i see her beauty shine my path
im stupid to do this
but im happy to fall for this
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Blowing the smoke
Blowing the smoke
trying to find something
inhaling the future
to forget the past
such a beautiful land
shame to blast them
with a packet or two
what am i doing?
never thought i would do this
why does calm taste like mint?
the feeling is nigh
but its all a lie
Blowing the smoke
trying to find something
inhaling the future
to forget the past
blowing the smoke
trying to hide myself
inhaling the lies
to forget emotion
in a dream im awake
walking through a city
at night with no lights
all i see is a bright cherry
i walk alone
the air tastes of mint
a trail of emotions
in the city of gaudi
the sacred family
searching for a future
if i look back now
all i see is smoke and lies
Blowing the smoke
trying to find something
inhaling the future
to forget the past
blowing the smoke
trying to hide myself
inhaling the lies
to forget emotion
happiness
leaving a trail of sorrow
emptiness
leaving a trail of confussion
a chilling evening
lost with no stars to shine
there not even upside down
oportunity is wide
but the countless times
ive been promised
a life with hope
an emotion i cant find
to an extent that is long
feeling bipolar
blowing smoke
in this cold minty air
have i chosen the right path?
i havent even gone to that road
where a passenger says goodbye
and never looks back
dropping the white sticks
forgetting whats just happened
on the bird that cant go back
i cant even look at it
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Burning
Before you take it
i left down this purpose
crawling up and down
burning in a glass house
Suck the life outta me
portray an unlawful paradise
sick and tierd
cant stand your symbol
broken wings
i cant control
any future of mine
not even my past
no help beyond this point
all i need is the truth
i cant even get a lie
not a word from god
sitting and waiting
for the sky to burn me alive
waiting for it to happen
cant stay my skin deteriotes
broken wings
i cant control
any future of mine
not even my past
counter time
full of shit
i cant think
big brother burns me lies
its cold
its hot
i dont fucking know
where to go
sitting here
waiting to be burned alive
to see my life drain
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Determinism
A Path that was chosen before
Unity towards our health
Following a dream
A sorrow that seems to fade
I’m sorry to declare
That what we had
Is not what we have
Determinism has its effects
While 42 is everything
It seems not to answer
The question we also asked
To our self’s
My mind will not forget
My heart will not regret
Time for change
In our fates
A path that seems
To brake with cracks
A feeling that should
Never be sorrow
The gratitude will always be there
As times go by
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Everything Bleeds
im sick and tierd of waiting
its time for you to leave
im seeing the daylight burn my eyes
a vast sky of nothingness
your bleeding us dry
hours of untold stories
unknown inside these doors
were everything changes
outside these worries
i cannot see a change
this has to stop now
choosing a time i will not forgive
you think its just that
depressing our name
to see a fake person
walk the streets
your bleeding us dry
hours of untold stories
unkwown inside these doors
were everything bleeds
i need to go
make my story
a scar on this earth
but with you i know not
this will not change
blame my wrath
for your actions
my fuck ups
to your doings
dont blame me
blame your fucking self
burn this money
why not?!
all you do is dream
stop fucking dreaming
live this fucking life
were more real then your nightmares
your bleeding us dry
hours of untold stories
unkwown inside these minds
were everything bleeds
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Eyes of the Darkness "Wrath Version"
Leave It Alone
Dont Complain
All You Are,
Are Hipocrits
The Books Are Our Visions
Soo Leave The Televisions
They Are Just Another Form Of Our Mind
They See...
They Are...
They Are The Eyes Of The Darkness
Theyre Books
With A Look
They Are The Hatred
Look in Yourself
And Youll See More of Whats Out THERE!!!
Our Inner Demon
Is Just Another Book
With No Words
Another Mind
In Another World
They See...
They Are...
They Are The Eyes Of The Darkness
Your Left With No Choice
All To Do is Complain
Your The Ones Who Are Taboo
Soo Go And Leave
Born...
Read...
Watch...
DIE!!!
They Are The Eyes Of The Darkness
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Eyes of the Darkness "Short Sorrow Version"
Last Thing I Say'd
Was The Thought Of All
When The Truth Fell Apart
I Could Only Fall
Nights Were The Only Choice
I Was Feeling Rushed
In A Not Soo Distant World
In This One I Felt Crushed
Eyes Of The Darkness
Im The Disomniac
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Fuck it
the feeling inside of me is getting darker
full of shit and full of anger
get rid of it get rid of me
fuck it all shoot it all
shit ive blown out
its let loose
no more please
ive gone to all fuck!
its started
its getting worse
to shit with everything
ill die one day but not today
my hour is now time to fuck it all
ive been driven to rage
i have a vision
a vision with our blood spilt together
to unify our fucked up lifes
im laughing at my failure
it starts a better beginning
ill start on everything
that includes you
to shit with everything
ill die one day but not today
my hour is now time to fuck it all
ive gone to all fuck!
its started
its getting worse
shit!
its ripped out of my mind
theres a black hole of non existence
in my thoughts
now the darkness has spread
uncontrolable fear
desired rage
uncontrolable fear
desired rage
uncontrolable fear
desired rage
uncontrolable fear
desired rage
uncontrolable fear
desired rage
fuck it
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Glorious Road
lights everywhere
imagination follows
slipping into a new world
to discover my mind
it flashes in my eyes
the wonderous pain
the frighting glory
its a vision to fulfill
Glorious road
entities of people
following theyre paths
in theyre mind
Glorious Road
flying so high
a new imagination
in my mind
present holding the future
our minds follow
slipping into the imagination
to discover a path
it flashes in my eyes
the wonderous pain
the frighting glory
its a vision to fulfil
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Hands of Blood
left alone and cried aside
we all follow some idiot
one day or another
we will make them follow
we are more pathetic
then our own shadow
crossed between sides
and left alone
my names untitled
left for the devil to decide
ive got my new crown of thorns
my heart made from barbwire
ill hurt anything that i touch
theyre heart will turn to coal
i have no shadow anymore
even my reflection has left me
left alone and cried aside
we all follow some fucker
one day or another
we will make them burn
i see blood dripping
down your heart
with the message of hate
burnt onto your palm of your hand
my heart and mind are the pentagram
let it burn
let it go dark as coal
left alone and cried aside
we all follow some fucker
one day or another
we will make them burn
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Heroes of Silence
*Intro - Susurando
Silence...
Heroes...
I Dont wanna go down in time
in a dark hole of silence
in a time of dead heroes
with a city of no lights
I Dont wanna go down in life
in a dark hole of torture
in a time of dead minds
with a city of no lights
(x2)
Heroes of silence
dead independence
Heroes of silence
dead independence
Heroes of silence
dead independence
Heroes of silence
dead independence
Tired of of being dead
white masks hiding
dead silent heroes
cant hide anymore
Staring at my imagination
tortured and mindfucked
take a breath and die
in a city with no lights
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I wasn't
I wasnt awake to find you alive
i didint care anymore to survive
all i needed right now
is the space between time
I wasnt there to help myself
i didint care about my health
I shot it down like a bird
surviving with one last word
I wasnt there
I wasnt alive
I wasnt myself
I burned my wealth
I wasnt awake to find you alive
i didint care anymore to survive
all i needed right now
is the space between time
I wasnt there to help myself
i didint care about my health
I shot it down like a bird
surviving with one last word
I wasnt there
I wasnt alive
I wasnt myself
I burned my wealth
Im walking away
actually feeling alive now
but lost inside somehow
burning through the doorway
Let me think about this
Why isnt it all bliss?
havent lost contact
all been soo abstract
I wasnt awake to find you alive
i didint care anymore to survive
all i needed right now
is the space between time
I wasnt there to help myself
i didint care about my health
I shot it down like a bird
surviving with one last word
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Indulge my Paradise
i sleep till dawn arises
my brains cries pain
indulge this forgiveness
trying to fall upwards
creepy walls bounce
i see no blue
i taste sound
instead i bleed my mind
i lost my bunny
the forrest is dark
i walk alone
spiralling towards humanity
indulge my paradise
as my inferno flutters
chaos feels happy today
please go
i dont intend to laugh
to your pity
i want to fly
towards the blood
i feel your mind
its just like shock
to my hunny hive
ive just killed
i feel you
indulge my paradise
as my inferno flutters
love feels sad today
let me go
indulge my paradise
as my inferno flutters
thy feels happy today
the effect can happen
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IT
I try To lift up
but i keep falling
ive left to grow for soo long
but now i cant take it any longer
my love for it is tremendous
but i cannot do anything but let it break
my heart is too heavy for it
i cant keep waiting for it to grow
all the things i do is for it
but no matter what i keep falling
i want to make it grow
i dont want it to break
i have no other things to do
ive been lefdt here with one door
to choose from
only one chair to sit on behind it
if i sit it will brak
soo my choice is not go through the door
and suffer the consecuences
ill fall on the floor and shiver to death
but i will not break it
i will die of the wait
but i will not break it
fuck it
ill die
foreget it
i wont break it
fuck it
ill shiver
i wont break it
ive touched it
thats gone too far
its made out of glass
i dont want to sit on it
i rather destroy my mind and my heart
then sit on it
i couldnt bare seeing it be destroyed by ones own self pitty
destroy me
and fuck it
kill me
and fuck it
make me suffer
FUCK IT
i love it to much
i will not be selfish
soo ill crumble in my mind
and become mad insane and fucked up
let me be
let me die
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I've gave what I can
Ive Been Sleeping All A Long
With Distraut
And A Mirrage
I Could Bare No Longer
Caos Has Been Sleeping
But No Longer Will It Keep Dying
Ive Gave What i Can
To Trust What I Tryed
My Mind Has Been Resting
I Am Awoken From A Dream
A Dream That Bares No Mirrage To My Life
It Was Caos Who Was Beside Me All A Long
To All It Belongs To None
But Now Caos Can No Longer Wait
Its Destrucytion Has Started
It Started In My Nightmares
But It Will Finnish on You
Ive Gave What i Can
To Trust i Tryed
Ive Been Sleeping All A Long
With Rage
And Remorse
I Could Wait No Longer
Pain Has Raised Another Level
Wake Up Now
To All It Belongs To None
But Now Caos Can No Longer Wait
Its Destrucytion Has Started
It Started In My Nightmares
But It Will Finnish on You
Ive Gave What i Can
Im Lying On my Own Blood
Shaking From Fear
Shaken From Sorrow
Shaken From Rage
Shaken From...
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Mixtured Emotion
one thing
has a beginning
but finally an end
all i did was forgive
all you did was forget
Mixtured emotion
a sleeve of tears
will wipe away soon
were all falling
to rise back up
im gonna miss this
yes i am
a un-united bond
fully untrusted
we gave what we can
you never delivered
time for you to leave
we do not want this lies
Mixtured emotion
a sleeve of tears
will wipe away soon
Mixtured emotion
a sleeve of sadness
will wipe away soon
growing in this field
i see the stars again
but we need you gone
walk away now
follow your eden
lets just start again
im upset
you left us no choicce
you have mix of emotion
leaving with us empty
carried a trail of dispair
were all alone now
Mixtured emotion
a sleeve of hapiness
will be here soon
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November "Short"
To the end of all flaws
we killed the cause
continue this bridge
as i become vintage
May the dreams be sweeter
than i ever was
May the keys be strong
than they ever were
Remember
It was only november
the night with fire
only i could admire
Forget
that it was a net
the dawn with death
my last breath
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Sexual Vamnpires
shape your name in the smoke
i carved our name on the old oke
time to drink to a new memory
and ill be your last breath
Sexual vampires
it was all fire
we burned!
we shared the pain
we burned!
it felt like cocaine
we burned
shape your heart in the smoke
i carved our sex on the old oke
time to drink to a new beauty
ill be your death
Sexual vampires
it was all fire
we dreamed
we shared the end
we dreamed
it felt like acid
we dreamed
cant follow you on
it was all drawn
i wont forget
the last sunset
we will not be diminished
you will be my cherished
ill will remember the bite
on the dawn of midnight
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Summers Nightmare
I had an energy
powerful and free
Now my hearts trapped
covered in chains
confused with wrath
i feel like walking away
and not to come back
im not flying anymore
a summers nightmare
loosing days
all the time
its failed
its to time walk
i dont need this
let me go
set me free
a summers nightmare
a lost heart
in time again
its all symmetric
confused with love
i feel like its a chore
symmetric love
time to fall away
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The Limits of Choice
In times like this
I’m still young and versatile
What can I do? If your love constrains me
The contact is getting too much
Limited to what I can do
I can’t be the same
You look at me like I’m weird
But that’s the way I am
The limits of choice
I can’t think what to do anymore
I want to be me
You say you don’t control our relasonship
But I do something that is me
And I’m a freak from space
I can’t be with this
Our love is there
But there isn’t that feeling
We used to have
I want the freedom
I want my choices
Not to be looked down upon
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Scent on the wind
as i stand in fear
the unkown next is to come
as she follows the wind
her scent is drawn to beauty
the obstacle just like there is
is the one she follows
as she doesnt the truth
of the scent on the wind
feeling full
also with doubt
but this is it
i need to follow
the wind
her scent is strong
just like a perfume
a poisones perfume of innocence
she is like the wind
a powerful gust of desire
a strong infinity of envy
i feel her scent on the wind
powerless and shaken
this is not how it was ment to happen
but ill fight to have it
this scent is my addiction
to find a new way of life
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untill the end
ropes and strings
calling all lies
to tighten this burden
to reunite a lost cause
we bled together
burning a summers day
no one will understand this
except us
we will see
how moonlights change
the lunatic heart
not hiding against you
no more friendly fire
your skin is cold
but flames in my blood
will warm your heart
chances are always given
why not now
the end was nigh
but fuck it
lets end it together
one day these strings will part
in a direction that splits
for a choice we dont understand
but we know its what we want
suspended in all test of love
i still manage to gain your heart
untill the end
we haved reached our goal
untill the end
beneath this moonlight
untill the end
when i see no summer dawn
untill the end
with haunted kiss
untill the end
when we meet again
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White Days
Our Days Are Still Bright
Some how theyre brighter at times
even when its dark you still shine
Our First Day Was A White Day
And Soo Will Every day to come
close inside with a dark mind
i mime to the words
your hearts sings to me
little bright there
little hell here
little you here and now
touch that key
and make my hurt pump
on the white days
of our life
the beginning is everyday
left with no choices
but to love all day
Our First Day Was A White Day
And Soo Will Every day to come
Our First Day Was A White Day
And Soo Will Every day to come
let your hair flow with the wind
let me be your king
you sayd white is the beginning
to start something
soo white is everyday of our beginning
ill still stay up at night
to wait you fall asleep
soo no one can hurt you
on our beautiful white day
let me flow with your hair
shining more then sun itself
but couldnt shine more then
our hearts together
Our Days Are Still Bright
Some how theyre brighter at times
even when its dark you still shine
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You know what?
I see you burn
i see you set a light
I see you fade away in my dreams
Awoken by the smell of lies
To see all my memories
fade in ash like false endings
what is this?
walking through a silent street
i see blind minds
everything seems far away
to reach a new start
I see you rot
I see you not
I see the flames at the end of my dreams
I see you fade away
I see you so far away
I saw it coming
Awoken by the smell of lies
To see all my memories
fade in ash like false endings
you know what Fuck YOU!
Walking through city lights
i hear the music
everything seems to be fun
a presence of evil
Now Im alive
alive and well to see
what has always been there
a faded memory
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Your My Cure.
Your my cure
to the disease
that never existes
untill my vains
turned black
i fell in to your loneliness
and turned to the bones of eden
to follow our paths
your my cure
sweet cure
thats tastes like a cold afternoon
on a burning morning
i stumble on these streets
where eyes on the floors
looking down at me
disgust is theyre shame
leaving a trail of blood
a disease without motto
i couldnt beleive
i was here
your my cure
to the disease i have
to fall on my own blood
to taste my own mind
finding the date
to be right to you
but the pain follows
i cant see no more
to whats right in front of me
i cant see I CANT SEE
fuck i need a cigerette
to burn my sorrows away
to blow the smoke
of red blood
of the victims past and present
Your my cure
to the disease
i am nicotine
to your lungs
im bad for you
but you cant stop
lets face it
you know soon
youll have to leave
and leave the disease behind
to cure everyone else
I am cancer to society
they dont fucking care
im there alone on the streets
the night is bright
and i follow the moon
to my grave
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Shrouded Love
Shining them eyes one last time
remembering our pasttime
skies are dawning red
its all in our head
i may not be here
when you come back
beautiful moments
will never ever crack
shrouded love
terms of our end
not to offend
its never above
Shining them eyes one last time
remembering our pasttime
skies are dawning red
its all in our head
i may not be here
when you come back
beautiful moments
will never ever crack
it was all green
it was never obscene
one day again
we will pass through
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I do have many more but on my old HDD. and it would fill up this page a lot.
If you did have the time to read them all please let me know whats your favourite? and why?
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