Ive been getting the dreams again... most likely due to the news... Its really starting to tak over me, I either want to sleep for ever and dream what is becoming my past, my reality... or never to sleep again...
Today I herd, If you dream about someone, it means they were thinking about you when they went to sleep. I wish this was true but how things are I think that stopped long ago...
The heat and summer is unbearable but for the first time I'm becoming a lot more positive about the summer and its awkward heat, just a lot of pool, beaches... just water xD
Im scared of the future, but then again I cant wait, the reason why my mind wanders back in time is due to this island and the memories, also getting hurt every second now knowing the truth. It kind of feels like these nightmares/dreams are like another dimension or portal, a "what if", One thing im not sure about is, Would I of been happier now? or in the what if dimension? I've seen friends relationships come and go a lot recently, and its hard seeing them upset and problematic but the more I observe the more I understand, what we were like, our flaws, our problems, our stupidities, I will keep all of this new info in to account so when I do fall in Love again I will try and make it the best fucking time of my life, I know I'm a very romantic person but also very ermmm annoying at times hehe, but I can fix that. I have successfully merged my old-self with a new sit and observe positive way of think.
Im not sure if it early misconceptions I had about her but I did enjoy it.
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