Again sitting in the living room, with no where to look without having a moment where it would make you think whats going around yourself... and again up till dawn rises again feeling no time has actually passed since my last endevour, I wonder if its all still this long dream that keeps me awake at night, the more that passes around me these dreams keep coming back like lost delusive thoughts again following me around, driving myself insane.


Does it scare me that I see the sky blue again? or do I feel disappointed that I know that it is the same sky that I will keep seeing for a time to come?
I keep flying of choices I make telling myself the same idea over and over again to try and fulfil it as I fall deeper into my own black hole waiting in the back of my mind.