My Body is a Cage.

Love?

At one point in your life, you will find someone amazing, different, that person makes you feel warm inside, and you feel like you have met this person before perhaps in another life or dimension...
But, when you find out this person already is with someone, you do what you do best in these situation shut down, close up for the winter and "try" and walk away from the situation... untill... that person also feels the same about you, and when you find out about this, your heart skips 2 beats, one for pure happiness and one for pure sorrow, Now you do not know which road to take, which decision to make, and what world to live in.
Bit by bit, you get to know this person, and start to share memories despite the situation your putting yourself in, more and more your digging a hole, in to boths mind and heart.
You think understanding a girl is hard? try understanding a girl who speaks another language.
Problems start to emerge, when its umbarable to continue this way, a way you cant even explain to yourself, but you know how much it hurts... not being able to do what you both desire.
I have loved before like I have explained in this blog in earlier blog posts But, this is one of the hardest things I have had to deal with in the part of Love.
You feel useless, and you dont know what to do, cramped by a feeling of bitter death in your mind not being able to follow a dream thats has been dremt all your life, a person you never though you would ever find, despite the stories and warnings I have been told, even my gut has told me to keep away from day one, but I dont listen, Untill today...
I have walked away, untill something new happens, you may not already know but its happened to me before, I have been hurt this way before, and I am not going through something again that I cant change. Dont try and fix something you cant change, you cant mold to fantasy you built.
All I can say is... My Body is a Cage...